About Me
- Non Sequitur718
- I am a writer of dark magical realism. All that is visible but rarely seen, all that is real but seems surreal, all that is dark yet radiates light.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
ONE DAY MY SOUL WILL OPEN UP...
And I will be a prolific writer; right now I am told I write well. I am always grateful when people praise my writing. I have only been writing since May (of course I've written things my whole life but I mean writing more than memos and e-mails) so right now I am experimenting with word play. I try to mimic emotions by the way I twist my words, from my outside to your inside. People say you sound so angry/sad/serious there, which is good because usually when I write I am laughing--I'm new to it, it's all in fun.
Words are symbols and signs. One day my soul will open up and I will not just write them; I will evoke them.
Words are symbols and signs. One day my soul will open up and I will not just write them; I will evoke them.
JUDGEMENT JUNCTION
I am judgmental. I can't help it. I tried not to judge and in the process I became a liar. See, I kept my opinions to myself and instead deferred to yours--I told you what you wanted to hear and became a fraud. In private, my judgments of you came out and in person you saw them in my ever shifting moods and perspectives.
I am opinionated. I am vocal. I am discerning. I am judgmental.
I apologize; I did try but we just can't see eye to eye. I googled your perspective and I read them and honestly they all sounded like you: rationalizing, avoiding and full of psychosis.
I can't associate with you anymore--your confusion is confusing. You're so topsy turvy; the motion is making me nauseous.
In order to fully relate to you, I would have to lose myself.
It's not that I was trying to make you feel bad. But if you are trying to hide from the truth, when you are hit with it you won't feel good.
And if you are reading this: I will keep my mouth shut. But I do think you are gay. You said you sucked penis and you loved it. Embrace it, it's never going away.
I am opinionated. I am vocal. I am discerning. I am judgmental.
I apologize; I did try but we just can't see eye to eye. I googled your perspective and I read them and honestly they all sounded like you: rationalizing, avoiding and full of psychosis.
I can't associate with you anymore--your confusion is confusing. You're so topsy turvy; the motion is making me nauseous.
In order to fully relate to you, I would have to lose myself.
It's not that I was trying to make you feel bad. But if you are trying to hide from the truth, when you are hit with it you won't feel good.
And if you are reading this: I will keep my mouth shut. But I do think you are gay. You said you sucked penis and you loved it. Embrace it, it's never going away.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
QUOTE: “THERE IS NO HEAVEN, THERE IS NO HELL, EXCEPT HERE ON EARTH.” ANTON LAVEY
Life is in the now. All we know for sure is here, what happens next: who knows. The only language I know is English, so I am unable to read any ancient texts. Sure there are translations but translations are versions and we all know if you ask 50 people to tell their version of an event, you will get 50 different stories. Besides even in the original texts, many parts are omitted and an incomplete story can't possibly tell the whole truth.
As far as quantum physics and the afterlife, I'm not even going to go there--I dropped physics in high school and single variable calculus kicked my ass(any class that requires more than fifteen minutes of studying before a test will kick it).
Reincarnation is not a concept I fully understand. I read a book on left hand path tantra that states you can be reincarnated as an ant. According to this aghori, the last thing you were thinking of before you die is what you will be. This man was thinking about how much he wanted to eat a mango, died, and was reincarnated as an ant on the fruit. Sounds pretty far fetched but no more far fetched than any other religious myth. I have also read that once a human, you will always be reincarnated as a human. Ant, human, who can definitively say which one is true, I guess pick the version that best suits you--no animal or insect for me.
So all I know is: Life is in the Now. You can make your now heaven, or you can make your now hell, it's up to you: free will. This is not to say that things won't happen to you that are out of your control-- because they will, but while you have your druthers about you make it do what it do.
I'll borrow the 80/20 principle. 80 percent of what happens in your life is in your control: by either how you choose to react to a situation, the lifestyle you lead, and whether you choose to hold onto negative events, or stay in places, with people or in situations that don't serve you. 20 percent is out of your control: illnesses, violent crimes and other catastrophic events.
My favorite quote from the Qu'ran, which I actually heard on that TV show Sleeper Cell, was said when this jihad girl who was a nanny complained about her employer sexually harassing her. The character she complained to, Darwin, hit her with a quote from the Qu'ran as a response (I'm paraphrasing a paraphrase so this is just the gist): Allah gave you this whole world as yours. Why do you choose to stay in a place that does not serve you?
He then went on to kick her employer's butt, but he was right. She chose to stay in that situation, she could have left but she wanted to stay and be fondled so she could be a terrorist.
In conclusion: Make the best of what you have today, nobody knows for sure what happens next. Hey who knows, maybe this is the afterlife.
As far as quantum physics and the afterlife, I'm not even going to go there--I dropped physics in high school and single variable calculus kicked my ass(any class that requires more than fifteen minutes of studying before a test will kick it).
Reincarnation is not a concept I fully understand. I read a book on left hand path tantra that states you can be reincarnated as an ant. According to this aghori, the last thing you were thinking of before you die is what you will be. This man was thinking about how much he wanted to eat a mango, died, and was reincarnated as an ant on the fruit. Sounds pretty far fetched but no more far fetched than any other religious myth. I have also read that once a human, you will always be reincarnated as a human. Ant, human, who can definitively say which one is true, I guess pick the version that best suits you--no animal or insect for me.
So all I know is: Life is in the Now. You can make your now heaven, or you can make your now hell, it's up to you: free will. This is not to say that things won't happen to you that are out of your control-- because they will, but while you have your druthers about you make it do what it do.
I'll borrow the 80/20 principle. 80 percent of what happens in your life is in your control: by either how you choose to react to a situation, the lifestyle you lead, and whether you choose to hold onto negative events, or stay in places, with people or in situations that don't serve you. 20 percent is out of your control: illnesses, violent crimes and other catastrophic events.
My favorite quote from the Qu'ran, which I actually heard on that TV show Sleeper Cell, was said when this jihad girl who was a nanny complained about her employer sexually harassing her. The character she complained to, Darwin, hit her with a quote from the Qu'ran as a response (I'm paraphrasing a paraphrase so this is just the gist): Allah gave you this whole world as yours. Why do you choose to stay in a place that does not serve you?
He then went on to kick her employer's butt, but he was right. She chose to stay in that situation, she could have left but she wanted to stay and be fondled so she could be a terrorist.
In conclusion: Make the best of what you have today, nobody knows for sure what happens next. Hey who knows, maybe this is the afterlife.
Friday, August 6, 2010
LAURA DORE: BEST BODY IN THE WORLD
There is nothing wrong with having someone to aspire to and this girl is mine. I first saw her picture in this guy's signature on a message board and I copied it. I have never done anything like that, there are plenty of girls with nice bodies, but this one just resonated: she's like my #1 Viva La Beyonce on steroids.
Well to me it is, from her hair to her thighs: flawless. I've been slacking on my workouts this week and I needed to see that. Keeping my eye on the prize: 7:30AM a few yoga asanas, stretching, abs and three miles. GET IT! GET IT!
Behold I present to you the BEST BODY IN THE WORLD:
Well to me it is, from her hair to her thighs: flawless. I've been slacking on my workouts this week and I needed to see that. Keeping my eye on the prize: 7:30AM a few yoga asanas, stretching, abs and three miles. GET IT! GET IT!
Kanye West - POWER
I was always a lukewarm fan of Ye--I liked his music enough but wasn't necessarily a fan of his. After he hooked up with that bald beast Amber Rose and jumped on stage and told the truth about #1 Viva La Beyonce during the MTV Awards--he stole my heart. But truthfully I love this video, the creativity and all of its symbolism--Love it! Love it! Love it!
POSITIVE THINKING CREATES YOUR REALITY
I was thinking about this statement and I agree it is true. But not in the way people think, if you only want to see the good or positive in life you will, but that is not to say the negative or shadow will not exist in your reality--it will just be shut off from you.
I often meet interesting characters that have wild tales and shadow lives. People always ask me, "Where do you meet this people? I don't know anyone like this." But you do, they just don't show you that side. I don't meet people in odd places; I don't befriend transients--many of the people I meet are well educated, all are intelligent and they go to the same restaurants, clubs, gyms and attend the same universities as you do. They are your relatives/friends/significant others-- it's just that I know some things about them that you don't.
People also ask me, "Why do people tell you these things?" It is because I am open and willing to listen. I like to hear and see it all-- not just the sweet dreams of the surreal.
It may not all be nice or that pretty but it's real and that's just reality.
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I often meet interesting characters that have wild tales and shadow lives. People always ask me, "Where do you meet this people? I don't know anyone like this." But you do, they just don't show you that side. I don't meet people in odd places; I don't befriend transients--many of the people I meet are well educated, all are intelligent and they go to the same restaurants, clubs, gyms and attend the same universities as you do. They are your relatives/friends/significant others-- it's just that I know some things about them that you don't.
People also ask me, "Why do people tell you these things?" It is because I am open and willing to listen. I like to hear and see it all-- not just the sweet dreams of the surreal.
It may not all be nice or that pretty but it's real and that's just reality.
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